While this post has nothing to do with hurricanes or tropical storms… it is written while that’s the thought on most central Floridians radar. I knew nothing about the storm that was brewing and made a trek to Orlando yesterday. It rained the entire way there, rained all night as we camped out with Ben and Kerri Falleur and the kids, and it rained all the way home. Just now, in fact, I am seeing more rain and winds whip around the lake out back as I sit on my couch and write this.
Kasi and I left early in the morning and I dropped her off in Kissimmee. I proceeded to Orlando to attend church at Calvary Chapel South Orlando. It was a miserable drive. I had no idea where I was going, it was raining like crazy and the dreariness and overcast totally shot any sense of direction. I didn’t know if was headed North or South and I felt this anxiousness rise up. LORD, how can I ever survive in Kenya if I can’t even drive back roads through Orlando. It seems I am finding lots of these thoughts popping up these days as I continue to process this call God has clearly spoken.
Lord, if you want me there this morning, HELP ME. By this time I was trying to convince myself it was “sign”. I honestly am not sure how, I took a few turns just because I felt a tug to, and… I made it to CCSO about eight minutes before service. I had an overwhelming awareness of God’s provision of direction and I felt my heart rest. I’m sorry, Lord, for this anxiousness… i don’t know how You do it – but thank You. God, open my eyes so I see Your hand at work around me.
I saw our good friends the Souzas just as I walked in the door, shaking off the rain. SO good to see that smiling face, albeit, a “what are you doing here?” shock. After our hugs and a very brief explanation, I got to meet a sweet young lady, Julie Visser, I have corresponded several times with about the mission to Kisii. She has led a team that has kept us in prayer and I was so blessed to be able to thank her for that and very briefly share our current need for prayer.
I followed Robyn & Randy past my usual back row, past the second to the back row… all the way up to nearly the front row to join in a sweet song of worship. My previously anxious heart melted into the truths of the words of the songs.
The pastor was teaching from Joshua 10. He spoke of Joshua’s pattern of victory. And how so often we allow apathy or complacency rise up, resulting in a loss of the sense of the power of GOD. In Romans, Paul talks of not being ashamed of the Gospel of Christ – for IT is the power of God for salvation to all those who believe. Pastor Charles went on to share a pattern for daily victory…
- Matt 22:37-40 – Love God and love others
- Prov 3:5-6 – Trust in the Lord
- Matt 6:33 – Seek 1st the Kingdom of God
- Rm 12:1 – Give yourself to God
- Eph 5:1 – Be imitators of God
The pieces I am sharing may be all over the place – but for me – they are very in line… OH LORD – please don’t let me become apathetic, or complacent. DON’T let me loose the sense of YOUR power!!! Let me be bold for YOU, for Your Gospel, of YOUR Salvation.
As the service ended, I felt the Lord had brought me there to let me know, to remind me that He will always lead in triumph in Christ!
I turned around to shake the hand of the young man behind me. Brian Plunkett is his name. He was visiting from California, went through the Bible College, has been to Nairobi 6 times, is very good friends with the Pottengers and had served with Ed and Kelli Compean (both CC Missionaries in Kenya) and knows them very well.
WHAT????? I was in Orlando for the purpose of meeting Kelli – to grab a few hours with her while she was so close. Yep, I stood there and cried. Just one hour ago after a fit of anxiousness, I cried out and asked God to show me HIMSELF. Brian asked to pray with me and he and Randy Souza lifted me up, asking God’s blessings, His provision, His direction, His power and His affirmations. He lifted the mission and the people of Kenya that are filling my heart with each passing day. He prayed for hearts to receive this Gospel, this Power, this Salvation – we had just sat there and been reminded of. So encouraged at this point, I quickly met Pastor Charles, his wife and a few others and scurried back out into the rain with a renewed mind.
I went on to meet Kelli. We sat for nearly 4 hours, talking, praying, sharing and praying some more. I knew that Monday morning when I met this woman in a mall in Nairobi, when I fell into her arms and immediately begin to cry, I just knew I was going to really really love this woman! She and Ed spent a few hours with Randy and I that day. They listened and they encouraged. They allowed us to share and they gave us much counsel. She is a direct gift to me right now and the fact that she is not only in the states for the next 6 months, but she was also in Orlando and could meet me for the afternoon… honestly, can ANYONE tell me otherwise….
…we serve a faithful, gracious, merciful GOD and HE desires for us to know Him intimately and pour out good gifts!!!!!
There is a part of me that feels I should present myself these next 6 months in a tall, determined, confident manner. I don’t want to appear to be wavering. I don’t want to come off uncertain. After all, I am, at 50 years old, with such a sweet wonderful SAULGOOD life of family, friends and ministry, 3 perfect grandchildren with another on the way and the reality that THAT basket could continue to fill, my precious family all back together again, Saturday morning breakfast has resumed…all this and I am…. after all….. moving – to AFRICA!?!?!?!?!?!!????!!
HOW CRAZY IS THAT???? How bizarre is this?
But I am here to tell you, there is NO doubt in my heart that God has called us to do this. Again – I don’t know how it will end up looking – but He has asked us… is He worth it? And we know without question, without doubt, without wavering… HE ABSOLUTELY IS!
This storm may have snuck up on me, storms can do that if you don’t keep watch. I think this weekend was a reminder to me to keep watch, keep watch and pray. I have a God Who has good works He has lined up for me… good works, powerful works, that I GET to be a part of… I also have an adversary, who like this storm, wants to destroy me and those works.
BUT – greater is HE that is in me and HE leads me on to triumph!! PRAISE HIS NAME!
Thanks for reading — I promise to keep them shorter…. Kari.